Saturday, April 26, 2008
I told my friend once
if u know mi
u feel tat i'm friendly
normal guy
nothing special
and childish
but if u dunno mi
i look like a pervert
scary person
stalker
isn't tis two image abit too far apart?
yesterday night around 9pm while i working
i saw 4 gal sitting at table 22
when one of them take out a manga i start to notice them
cause same hobby so i can't stop my curious but keep looking at them
after awhile they bring out a laptop
and guess wat?
they r watching cosplay photo!!!
i wish to watch it too >.<
i even regconise the character
it was one of the main character in La Corda D`Oro
but they seem to spotted mi looking at them
either they think i just a freak thinking tat they r a bunch of freak looking at the photo
or they just embarressed
they turn their laptop other way
so sad,feel like saying hi to them XD
I will show you the greatest NIGHTMARE!!!
Wednesday, April 23, 2008
present u my new song for my blog
sorry cause tis blog i dunno how to put the song visible
wish u all dun mind
tis some call "Heavenly Days"
From movie "戀空" A.K.A Sky of love
Sang by 新垣結衣
the rhythem not bad
i like it
and about the movie
either is i feel good or is their acting nice
it make mi cry
haha i'm a sentimental guy
cry very easy one XD
I will show you the greatest NIGHTMARE!!!
Saturday, April 19, 2008
There's a song in a old game in PS 1 called "Rhapsody" i like very much
i forget the song name
the lyrics maybe childish
but since i know it when i small
it's okay i like it rite? XD
The lyrics go like tis:
I remember this song
I know it for so long
And it feel so good to hear
Sound a little sad but sweet just the same
Lovely melody
Whenever i hear this song
I really don't know why
It make mi shed a little tear
But i'm sure my tear will soon disappear
Because i know u here
Whenever i am feeling sad
And every thing around looks bad
All i have to do is sing this song
I know my dream are waiting to come true
Let's go on with hope in our heart
Love will surely show us how
Let's go on with our heart fill with dream
Let's go on and find them now
Your such a lucky girl
That's what they always say
Rich and beautiful and bright
They don't get to see what hidden deep inside
So,i feel all alone
They keep telling me
My life is so grand
What will make them understand
No one know how truely lonely i am
Why won't they understand
I may act as if i'm strong
But all i want is to belong
Love and understanding from mum and dad
Is all i need to keep from being sad
If only i could just let go
Help let my feeling show
I will show you the greatest NIGHTMARE!!!
Friday, April 18, 2008
There r period of time feeling happy,
period of time feeling sad,
period of time feeling angry
happy everything u encounter even sad also can turn to happy
sad everything u encounter make u sad
angry even a small little thing make u angry
for all i can recall
tis month is the period of sad to mi
for wat i can recall
Work:
i start to lose the enthu and spirit of working
i start to run away
simply put it in tis way
low mood in my work nw
i know i over doing but i can't control myself
in the end have to let my friend tell mi where i wrong
thx to him i think i can at least start to change
wish next month can get better
"u r just too lazy Tsukikage"
Friend:
i realise it,although i know it all the way
i am not lonely but i claim and keep having the mindset of lonely
my friend didn't forsaken mi but it is mi the one who forsaken them
despite tat i well know i have a bad memory
i didn't try to contact my friend more often
i know i not good in talking
but maybe it was just a lazy excuse i give myself
i put up a good job of talking when i face to face them
take phone number or msn address
but in the end i didn't even msg or msn them
even when i did start to have conversation i only give them stupid question
"damn u Tsukikage!!!y can't u just keep ur mouth shut!!!"
Love:
been single for all my life so there's really nothing to be sad about
"...lame..."
family:
same old problem
mother more sickness
house more thing spoil
"than go repair it Tsukikage"
Myself:
change mask again i guess
but still can't change anything
i tough out my look outside
armor up my heart to look strong
but my heart is more weak than a gal
pathetic isn't it?
"haha gu liang lah u Tsukikage"
sad time,sad blog,sad reader,sad blogger
i will try write some happy stuff on my next blog
ganbatte!!!wish tis period gone soon...
I will show you the greatest NIGHTMARE!!!
Saturday, April 12, 2008
yesterday while i working
my partner keep disappear
i dun know y i get so angry
as friend i dun wan to lecture him
i have given him clue
but no use
is my station really tat boring
i'm those sensitive type
i was thinking
r u really like to help or u r just hated to work wif mi?
i get agitated more when i angry myself
and i start to have many negative thought again for myself
i tell lie again
i can't really stop angry within ten min
than around 11pm
i burst my anger out,
but tis time due to my supervisor called mi
i really hit my brake and i stop angry within 10 min
i try to cheer myself out
i laugh and smile
but dunno izzit because i jam the brake too fast or wat
around 12am i got many strange feeling
is not tat large emotion
i feel abit sad
abit angry
abit emo
abit happy
and many feeling i can't really describe
tis is the first time i got tis kind of feeling
12.30am i feel like burst out crying
but i can't cause i working
i start to turn back to the personality when i first work at there
and my mind start to confuse
who am i?
who is the real mi?
i found out tat i start to act move like all my friend around mi during tat short period
than again
abit headache
abit heartache
abit breath stopping and many more
i hate myself for not being myself
and i so mess up tat i dun know how to return to my old self
i so forgetful tat i dun know which is the real mi
i dun know who am i
i will be lonely forever wif tis kind of thought
but i dun know how to change...
I will show you the greatest NIGHTMARE!!!
Friday, April 11, 2008
A question list i take from my friend blog
[ ] I am shorter than 5'4. -eh. not sure.
[x] I think I'm ugly sometimes most of the times.
[ ] I have many scars.
[x] I tan easily.
[x] I wish my hair was a different color.
[ ] I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color.
[ ] I have a tattoo.
[x] I am self-conscious about my appearance.
[ ]I have/I've had braces.
[x] I wear glasses.
[ ] I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
[ ] I've been told I'm attractive by a complete stranger.
[ ] I have more than 2 piercing.
[ ] I have piercing in places besides my ears.
[ ] I have freckles.
[ ] I hate my dad.
[ ] I hate my mom.
[ ] I have a brother.
[x] I have a sister.
[ ] I've sworn at my parents.
[ ] I've run away from home.
[ ] I've been kicked out of the house.
[ ] My biological parents are together.
[x] I have a sibling less than one year old.
[ ] I want to have kids someday.
[ ] I've had children.
[ ] I've lost a child.
[ ] I'm in school.
[x] I have a job.
[x] I've fallen asleep at work/school.
[ ] I almost always do my homework.
[x] I've missed a week or more of school.
[ ] I've been on the Honor Roll within the last 2 years.
[x] I failed more than 1 class last year.
[ ] I've stolen something from my job.
[ ] I've been fired.
[ ] I've slipped out an "lol" in a spoken conversation.
[x] Disney movies still make me cry.
[ ] I've peed from laughing.
[x] I've snorted while laughing.
[x] I've laughed so hard I've cried.
[ ] I've glued my hand to something.
[x] I've had my pants rip in public.
[ ] I was born with a disease/impairment.
[ ] I've gotten stitches/staples.
[ ] I've broken a bone.
[ ] I've had my tonsils removed.
[ ] I've sat in a doctor’s office/emergency room with a friend.
[x] I've had my wisdom teeth removed.
[ ] I had a serious surgery.
[x] I've had chicken pox.
[ ] I was born in a different country.
[ ] I've driven over 200 miles in one day.
[ ] I've been on a plane.
[ ] I've been to Canada.
[ ] I've been to Mexico.
[ ] I've been to Niagara Falls.
[ ] I've been to Japan.
[ ] I've celebrated Mardi Gras in New Orleans.
[ ] I've been to Europe.
[ ] I've been to Africa.
[x] I've gotten lost in my city.
[ ] I've seen a shooting star.
[ ] I've wished on a shooting star
[ ] I've seen a meteor shower.
[x] I've gone out in public in my pajamas.
[x] I've pushed all the buttons on an elevator.
[ ] I've kicked a guy where it hurts.
[ ] I've been to a casino.
[ ] I've been skydiving.
[ ] I've gone skinny dipping.
[ ] I've played spin the bottle.
[ ] I've drank a whole gallon of milk in one day
[x] I've crashed a car.
[ ] I've been Skiing.
[x] I've been in a play.
[ ] I've met someone in person from myspace.
[ ] I've caught a snowflake on my tongue.
[ ] I've seen the Northern lights.
[x] I've sat on a roof top at night.
[ ] I've played chicken.
[x] I've played a prank on someone.
[x] I've ridden in a taxi.
[ ] I've seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show.
[x] I've eaten sushi.
[ ] I've been snowboarding.
[x] I'm single.
[ ] I'm in a relationship.
[ ] I'm engaged.
[ ] I'm married.
[ ] I've gone on a blind date.
[ ] I've been the dumpee more than the dumper.
[x] I miss someone right now.
[x] I have a fear of abandonment. -for people who im meeting for the day and will be late, please do sms me to tell me you'll be late.
[ ] I've gotten divorced.
[x] I've had feelings for someone who didn't have them back.
[ ] I've told someone I loved them when I didn't.
[x] I've told someone I didn't love them when I did.
[ ] I've kept something from a past relationship.
[ ] I've had a crush on someone of the same sex.
[ ] I'm bi.
[ ] I'm gay.
[ ] I've had sex.
[ ] I've had phone sex.
[ ] I've cybered.
[ ] I've had sex in public.
[ ] I've had a crush on a teacher.
[ ] I am a cuddler.
[ ] I've been kissed in the rain.
[ ] I've hugged a stranger.
[ ] I have kissed a stranger
[x] I've done something I promised someone else I wouldn't.
[x] I've done something I promised myself I wouldn't.
[x] I've snuck out of my house.
[x] I have lied to my parents about where I am.
[x] I am keeping a secret from the world.
[x] I've cheated while playing a game.
[ ] I've cheated on a test.
[x] I've run a red light.
[ ] I've been suspended from school.
[ ] I've witnessed a crime.
[x] I've been in a fist fight.
[ ] I've been arrested.
[x] I've consumed alcohol.
[ ] I regularly drink.
[ ] I've passed out from drinking.
[ ] I have passed out drunk at least once in the past 6 months.
[ ] I've smoked weed.
[ ] I've taken painkillers when I didn't need them.
[ ] I've eaten shrooms.
[ ] I've popped E.
[ ] I've inhaled Nitrous.
[ ] I've done hard drugs.
[ ] I have cough drops when I'm not sick.
[ ] I can't swallow pills.
[ ] I can swallow about 5 pills at a time no problem.
[ ] I have been diagnosed with clinical depression.
[ ] I have been diagnosed with one or more anxiety disorder.
[ ] I shut others out when I'm depressed.
[ ] I take anti-depressants.
[ ] I'm anorexic or bulimic.
[ ] I've slept an entire day when I didn't need it.
[x] I've hurt myself on purpose.
[x] I've woken up crying.
[x] I'm afraid of dying.
[ ] I hate funerals.
[ ] I've seen someone dying.
[ ] Someone close to me has attempted suicide.
[ ] Someone close to me has committed suicide.
[x] I've planned my own suicide.
[x] I've attempted suicide.
[ ] I've written a eulogy for myself.
[x] I own over 5 rap CDs.
[x] I own an iPod or MP3 player.
[x] I have an unhealthy obsession with anime/manga.
[ ] I own a plushie of my fave character from anything.
[ ] I own a cosplay outfit.
[X] I know what cosplay means.
[ ] I own multiple designer purses, costing over $100 a piece.
[ ] I own something from Hot Topic.
[ ] I own something from Pac Sun.
[X] I collect comic books.
[ ] I own something from The Gap.
[ ] I own something I got on e-bay.
[ ] I own something from Abercrombie.
[ ] I can sing well.
[ ] I've stolen a tray from a fast food restaurant.
[x] I open up to others easily.
[ ] I watch the news.
[ ] I don't kill bugs.
[ ] I hate hearing songs that sacrifice meaning for the sake of being able to rhyme.
[ ] I curse regularly.
[x] I sing in the shower.
[ ] I am a morning person.
[x] I paid for my cell phone ring tone.
[ ] I'm a snob about grammar.
[ ] I am a sports fanatic.
[x] I twirl my hair.
[ ] I have "x"s in my screen name.
[x] I love being neat.
[ ] I love Spam.
[ ] I've copied more than 30 CD's in a day.
[ ] I bake well.
[x] My favorite color is either white, yellow, pink, red or blue.
[ ] I've worn pajamas to school.
[ ] I like Martha Stewart.
[ ] I know how to shoot a gun.
[x] I am in love with love.
[ ] I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS.
[x] I laugh at my own jokes.
[x] I eat fast food weekly.
[x] I believe in ghosts.
[x] I am online 24/7, even as an away message.
[ ] I've not turned anything in and still got an A in a certain class.
[x] I can't sleep if there is a spider in the room.
[x] I am really ticklish.
[x] I love white chocolate.
[ ] I bite my nails.
[x] I play video games.
[ ] I'm good at remembering faces.
[ ] I'm good at remembering names.
[ ] I'm good at remembering dates.
[x] I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.
[ ] I loath labels.
[x] I like action movies. -some only
[x] I like horror movies.
[x] I like chick flicks.
[ ] I know the most random facts about things people have never heard of before.
[x] I can't spell.
[x] I treasure my friends.
[x] I think of others before myself.
[x] All of those are answered honestly.
some i dunno wat it mean...but...watever
I will show you the greatest NIGHTMARE!!!
Wednesday, April 9, 2008
Yes,tis is mi
tis hair has accompany mi for 22 year althought u can't see the white hair but there's alot in it
but my hair is thick so cover most of them
sunday i finally decide to have a big change on my hair
i ask my friend banana and his gf and my sis and her bf to accompany mi to ask them advise (big army rite? XD)
after our lunch we roaming around and finally choose Jantzen as the place i change my hair style
cause it more cheaper (hey,i'm a poor guy,give mi a break >.<)
while it quite happening when i wan to go in
my sis's bf disappear and my good friend's banana busy flirting wif his gf at the door and didn't even step into the shop wif mi or neither can heard wat i say(hey at least last time i go follow u into the shop!!!)
while left my sis,at least she accompany mi in ^^
so after a small conversation my sis left and the project of my hair change has began
let's skip the boring cutting part
when it start to put a round spaceship-like heater to heat my hair (i think so,cause is hot)
there's a moment i hit the heater wif my back of my head (keep awake after work from 11pm to 7am,tired)
lucky the sound is not tat big,pai sei XD
and go wash hair
and yes!!my new hair style!!!
and just when i having tis thought
i dunno wat we talk about after tat he suddenly cut my hair more short =_=lll (cause i like long hair and i not good in styling hair so i ask him not to give mi hair need to style)
but too late
i have to style it for the time being
but i also like my hair style nw
i will try to make it better XD
and i find out my hair really quite long
goodbye curtain-like hair style!!!
さよなら!!!
bon voyage!!!
永遠不見！！！
haha
I will show you the greatest NIGHTMARE!!!
